In high school, I started a journal that I would use to count my calories. At first, it was a healthy way to lose a little weight that I was unhappy with! I learned how to weigh and measure my food and was diligent about recording everything I ate! I started packing my own lunch so I knew exactly what I was eating every day. I figured out how many calories I needed to burn vs. eat to lose weight at a healthy rate and started seeing results!! My confidence was improving and I was feeling great! I was a varsity athlete, playing lacrosse and field hockey. I also took an athletic conditioning class so I was lifting weights every day also! I felt like a pretty darn healthy woman!!
Somewhere, I can’t remember how or when… my calorie counting became obsessive. I went from 2,000 calories a day to 1,800… 1,500… 1,200… 900 and some days by journal literally says 700 calories. All the while I was increasing my physical activity I was going to the gym to swim before school and staying late after practice to do extra conditioning. With all of that activity I was fueling my body with a measly 700 calories. I became obsessed with the number on the scale so much that I didn’t realize that I was starting to lose my muscle mass, I wasn’t able to sprint down the field as fast without losing my breathe. I was starving.
Ugh… writing this is soooo tough! I want to go back in time and slap myself! At least now that I have been down that dark path and got help for it, I can help even more people who are struggling with an obsession with the number on the scale.
It’s easy to want something so badly that you are inclined to take drastic measures to get there. Or get so overwhelmed with what you want to accomplish that you don’t even know where to start!!!
When that happens…
And go slowly
You WILL get there but nothing that is worth having comes easy. It will take time, lots of effort and serious dedication. Decide on your goal… Find a support system that can encourage and motivate you along the way… Get the tools that you need to be successful. Lastly, do not give up stay the course and you will get there in a healthy way!!